Love Letters

Chapter 255 She is 8 years old, with no past and no future

He Miao never imagined that the topic that Xu Mobai was determined to hide was related to her.

She is eighteen years old, with no past and no future...

The rebirth they had agreed on turned out not to be her chance...

After He Miao's death, Xu Mobai's world became gray and boring, and time began to seem long.

Her liveliness and enthusiasm suddenly disappeared, and his world was like a world without the sun, completely shrouded in darkness.

He Miao didn't know exactly how she ended her life, but she knew that Xu Mobai must remember it.

Because he ended his life in the same way as she did.

According to him, her future is all tragedy.

And his several rebirths never changed her life...

It was the first time she saw him so helpless.

Xu Mobai recorded many key nodes, and the time she lost her life was getting earlier each time.

Everything suddenly made sense.

No wonder he was so sensitive about her age that summer, that summer break.

No wonder he becomes sad when talking about her life.

It was as if... every time she disappeared, it was right under his nose.

No wonder he had always kept her away from him, disdained her, and told her not to provoke him…

If nothing changes this summer, does that mean he will repeat the same tragedy and the same life?

Suddenly, a bad premonition came to mind, and He Miao also had other ideas...

If the two of them had no intersection, he should be able to live well.

In the past, He Miao always complained that he didn't love her enough, and he spoke little and was unwilling to express himself.

Now she wished he had never met her and liked her.

How can a person who can't remember his past and has no clear future have the right to drag others to hell?

I hope Xu Mobai can be strong this summer, and in all the summers to come!

That morning, He Miao put on his clothes and left quietly, pretending nothing had happened.

Afterwards, she took leave and returned to Huaicheng to see Zhao Huijuan and He Dashu.

They were a little surprised that He Miao came back, "Why are you back? Isn't the college entrance examination coming up soon?"

"What? Grandpa, you don't want to see me come back?"

"Yes! Of course I would. Grandma is so happy that she can't wait to see you."

Zhao Huijuan was in good health at the moment. After pushing He Dashu away, she pulled He Miao back to the room to talk in private.

There were only a few days left, and she felt even more so as she passed by with a feeling of parting.

How much time is left for her? How much time is left for her to spend with her family?

She didn't stay in Huaicheng for long before returning.

That night, He Miao rarely returned to his room after dinner.

She sat on the sofa with Zhang Meili and He Dahai watching TV, and she sat right between them.

It's rare for the family to sit together and watch TV.

I accidentally saw some TV episodes.

"It's too tragic for an old person to send off a young person."

He Dahai was emotional and was the first to express his feelings.

"He's so young, so pitiful."

Zhang Meili also echoed, "How can the elderly live if they are left here?"

The atmosphere suddenly became gloomy and depressing.

He Miao didn't say a word during the entire TV watching process. He was so quiet that he seemed to be very focused.

"Mom, can you have another child?"

When the TV show finished and entered the commercial break, He Miao suddenly asked.

"I would like to, but I'm not in good health."

Zhang Meili thought He Miao was joking with her, so she responded to her jokingly.

"And your father may not be physically able to do so."

"Who are you saying is not okay? I have always been concerned about your health."

He Dahai was not convinced and retorted: "We agreed before that we only wanted Miaomiao."

"Oh! If only I had one more child back then."

Zhang Meili's tone was relaxed, but there was also a hint of regret, making it difficult to tell whether it was true or not.

"sorry."

He Miao suddenly became serious.

"I'm kidding. You alone are enough to worry about for me."

Zhang Meili was a little surprised to see that she was in a bad mood.

"But I'm serious."

He Miao suddenly raised his eyes to look at her, and said seriously, "I failed to be a child who made you proud."

"What are you talking about?"

It was rare to see He Miao take the initiative to reflect on himself, and he was so sincere about it. For a moment, Zhang Meili felt a little uncomfortable.

She rolled her eyes at her in annoyance and asked, "Have you become stupid from studying?"

"No."

He Miao quickly denied it and then made an excuse, "I just think if I can still have another child, I should have another one."

"It's easy for you to say that. You alone are already a headache for us and we suffer a lot. If there is another one, will your father and I still be alive?"

Zhang Meili didn't listen to anything He Miao said and just thought he was joking.

"Just live like that, eat on time, sleep on time, and go out for a walk when you feel irritated."

He Miao said seriously, "This world will continue to turn around no matter who you are. Time is the best medicine."

"Have you lost your mind from studying? Why do you just talk nonsense every day?"

Seeing that she didn't seem to be joking, Zhang Meili became anxious.

"I'm not kidding, I'm serious."

He Miao still insisted, and as she spoke she felt like crying again.

It was rare for the whole family to watch TV together in such a harmonious atmosphere, and He Miao was reluctant to give up such a wonderful time.

However, looking at Zhang Meili and He Dahai who were getting older, she didn't want to say it at all.

Even if I tell it, what will it do? It will only make one more person sad.

I really want to die alone without letting anyone know.

"Mom and Dad don't expect you to achieve much or become rich. It's good enough that you can support yourself in the future."

He Dahai saw He Miao's anxiety and said, "No matter what, your mother and I will stand by your side."

"Mom never thinks about what kind of person you should be. A good wife to others? A good mother? ... Just be yourself. Don't try to portray yourself as a savior hero all the time."

Zhang Meili also became serious. It was a rare opportunity to educate He Miao directly, so how could she let it go.

"You are just a very, very ordinary girl. You can't be seen in a crowd."

Zhang Meili would always pour some cold water on people when they were touched, neither wanting to make He Miao sad nor to make her proud.

Therefore, the words are always roundabout and sound like they are full of thorns.

"Do you want to say this about your own daughter? Am I your biological child?"

He Miao knew that Zhang Meili was comforting her, but she suddenly wanted to cry.

"mom!"

"what?"

He Miao didn't say anything, but just went over to hug her and rubbed against her.

"It's hot! Stay away from me."

"No, I want to be next to you."

He Miao started to act coquettishly, so sweetly that Zhang Meili got goosebumps.

"You, you just like to argue with me."

"Ah."

Zhang Meili cursed a lot, but she had no intention of pushing He Miao away.

He Dahai smiled and looked at the two of them quietly.

As for He Miao, she rested her head on Zhang Meili's shoulder and held her arms tightly with both hands.

This is a gentle memory of home, the ordinary, mundane, and insignificant daily life.

What a gentle and painful world!

I really don't want to leave......